F*ck My Life (FML)

CounterPULSE, SF (2012) & The Wild Project, NYC (2013)

Written and performed by Xandra Ibarra, directed by Evan Johnson


F*ck My Life (FML) is a mute spectacle that explores the backstory and failure of Xandra Ibarra’s burlesque persona. FML chronicles Ibarra’s early ambition to use burlesque “spictacles” to undermine her audience’s Mexiphobic gaze. With astute direction from Evan Johnson, Ibarra reveals her incompatible relationship with her audience and the emotional toll that her spictacles have had over the past ten years of her project “La Chica Boom.” By juxtaposing her story with the rumored death of Hollywood’s “Mexican Spitfire” Lupe Velez, who purportedly died with her head in the toilet, La Chica Boom foreshadows the destiny of her persona- she becomes a a cockroach: reviled and untamable.

READ Stuck With You by Xandra Ibarra, In Dance, 2012. Print.

READ Forms of Opacity: Roaches, Blood and Being Stuck in Ibarra’s Corpus by Christina A. León, ASAP/Journal Volume 2, Number 2, May 2017

READ “Queer Art / Queer Failure” by Tina Takemoto, Art Journal 75:1, May 2016: 85-88

READ Performance Review of FML by Ángeles Donoso Macaya – E-misferica, 2013